Wednesday, August 30, 2006
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for now.
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so...
sng-sensei no otousan shin da.
somehow i feel his pain.
i don't know why.at all.
an empty feeling like what happened when i watched the hokage's funeral.
i don't cry at funerals.
not yet,at least.
and sometimes,when i will myself to,i don't.
and for that i've only attended about three in my life,not counting sarutobi-sensei.
i didn't miss mr sng while he was away from cedar (even less after that very unflattering picture of him in INK that inadvertently gave him a sort of SPARE TYRE),but i didn't know this was why he was absent.
and now i do.
and it hurts.just a little bit.
like where gaara hurt when no one would play with him and everyone called him a monster and told him to die.
sng-sensei no otousan must have been a good man,for him to have imparted to mr sng everything that we now come to identify him with.
this includes his occasional craziness (ohyes.).but being completely sane all the time can be very very scary.
not to mention his fervent love for god as he knows it.(i only added the "as he knows it" because i remain an atheist.)
and of course how he'd like his productions to have meaning.
"Everything in life is only for now."
- Princeton,For Now,Avenue Q.
"At the temple, there is a poem called 'Loss', carved into the stone. It has three words, but the poet has scratched them out. You cannot read 'Loss'... Only feel it."
- Nitta Sayuri,Memoirs Of A Geisha
"Pippin: I didn't think it would end this way.
Gandalf: End? No, the journey doesn't end here. Death is just another path . . . one that we must all take. The grey rain-curtain of this world rolls back, and all turns to silver glass... And then you see it.
Pippin: What, Gandalf? See what?
Gandalf: White shores . . . and beyond. A far green country, under a swift sunrise.
Pippin: Well, that isn't so bad.
Gandalf: [Softly:] No... No it isn't."
- Pippin and Gandalf,Lord Of The Rings
"Every blade in the field,
Every leaf in the forest,
Lays down its life in its season,
As beautifully as it was taken up."
- Henry David Thoreau
"Life is but a passing dream, but the death that follows is eternal"
- Seymour,FFX
"How can you prove that we exist? Maybe we don't exist..."
- Vivi Ornitier,FFIX
"To be forgotten is worse than death."
- Freya Crescent,FFIX
"All life fears death from birth. Life fears death, but lives only to die. It starts with anxiety. Anxiety becomes fear. Fear leads to anger... anger leads to hate... hate leads to suffering..."
- Necron,FFIX
"The cycle of nature and your stupid plan don't mean a thing. Aeris is gone. Aeris will no longer talk, no longer laugh, cry... or get angry... What about us... what are WE supposed to do? What about my pain? My fingers are tingling. My mouth is dry. My eyes are burning!"
- Cloud Strife (on Aeris),FFVII
The sky cries for your father,Mr Sng.Yesterday,today,and probably tomorrow as well.
I'm so happy you smiled when I sent my condolences about your father.
I know your eyes were red before going to receive your gift from your class.
But don't worry,the sun'll shine again.
exeunt character, 8:08 AM
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